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Living with Fear and Uncertainty

When I listen to the , it takes me to a place of yearning, grief and loss and longing that I cannot identify and don’t understand. This is what my children would call Mum’s sad, weird, drunk music. I used to listen to it in 2004 when I was not a well person.

How can you yearn for something that you don’t know exists?

Living with and taming the beast of uncertainty is something we all have to live with. We are never quite sure how the day’s events will pan out. At the end of the day when I review the timeline of what happened, I need to come away with a sense of, yes that went well, or no it didn’t go well, but tomorrow is another day. The day after that I have to let go of the day before with all its sadness, badness and guts and glory and move forward. This is called mindfulness, being aware of only the present moment in a non judgemental way, because ultimately that is all we have.

Certain foods, textures, smells, voices, sights, sounds and the music of Sigur Ros puts me in a headspace where I am not sure where mindfulness lies. I have to constantly bring myself back to the present moment because I find myself drifting off into outer space and I need to concentrate on more earthly requirements such as finishing that report I have to do for work,
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Overcoming this feeling is called acceptance. I accept that what happened was not my fault, I accept that I still have flashbacks from events not under my control and I accept that not everyone who purports to be my friend is my friend and that not everyone is a potential enemy waiting to sabotage my life. That is called trust.

I still have nebulous trust issues that surface during times of personal stress. Nowadays I recognize that my trust in good people can waver due to past events and I am quick to rectify the situation,
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She lives in Western Australia, is married with three adult children, has studied psychoanalytic psychotherapy, has a Certificate IV in Mental Health and is studying for a Psychology/Counselling degree. She currently works as a peer support worker in the mental health field.

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